Saturday, May 21, 2011
I'm not a scary person...I really believe I was never promised the spirit of fear so its not something that I'm really familiar with. I'm not use to it. I don't know what to do when it shows up. So I generally just retreat. When faced with fear of what not (or maybe what will be) I rather just prepare myself for the worst. I gotta stop it I don't think its what I should do.
I'm at a tipping point where I gotta just trust in what I have learned about myself and do something different. I gotta realize what I have done in the past has some flaws. The plan needs to be tweaked. This is the hardest point where you make the choice do something differently than you have your whole life. Its hard tho. Real hard. But I keep telling myself that I"m not insane. (Insanity is repeating the same actions & expecting different results). If I want a different result, a better result, the desired result, I gotta do something different. And I gotta face my fear. Cause fear really isn't an option I gotta trust my gut and go.... I cant be afraid of something that hasn't happed I gotta live in the now. *Zen stance* *deep breathe*