Saturday, May 21, 2011

Tipping Point

"Nobody’s life is entirely free of pain and sorrow. Isn’t it a question of learning to live with them rather than trying to avoid them?

The greater part of human pain is unnecessary. It is self-created as long as the unobserved mind runs your life.

The pain that you create now is always some form of nonacceptance, some form of unconscious resistance to what is. On the level of thought, the resistance is some form of judgment. On the emotional level, it is some form of negativity. The intensity of the pain depends on the degree of resistance to the present moment, and this in turn depends on how strongly you are identified with your mind
 Tolle, The Power of Now 

I'm not a scary person...I really believe I was never promised the spirit of fear so its not something that I'm really familiar with. I'm not use to it. I don't know what to do when it shows up. So I generally just retreat. When faced with fear of what not (or maybe what will be) I rather just prepare myself for the worst. I gotta stop it I don't think its what I should do.

I'm at a tipping point where I gotta just trust in what I have learned about myself and do something different. I gotta realize what I have done in the past has some flaws. The plan needs to be tweaked.  This is the hardest point where you make the choice do something differently than you have your whole life. Its hard tho. Real hard. But I keep telling myself that I"m not insane. (Insanity is repeating the same actions & expecting different results). If I want a different result, a better result, the desired result, I gotta do something different. And I gotta face my fear. Cause fear really isn't an option I gotta trust my gut and go.... I cant be afraid of something that hasn't happed I gotta live in the now. *Zen stance* *deep breathe*

"Life is now. There was never a time when your life was not now, nor will there ever be" -Tolle, The Power of Now 

Be EZ,


♥ CG ♥ said...

I'm with you, sis. I never imagined I would reach 40 and have the reality of some past actions come back to smack me. I guess that's life (for some of us). If you have the desire to be a better person it's just a necessary thing I suppose.


I think the thing about fear is it only pops up at times when you are close to the goals or crossroads you were trying to reach but aren't fully ready to grasp them. Every plan needs to be malleable because bumps in the road occur, but no matter how you plan for them until you hit it you don't hear the THUMP.

Just like driving on a road you hear it and all the stuff that could go wrong comes flooding into your head and until you pull over to check your:Tires, door, bumper, undercarriage, whatever you thought you heard all you have is your worries. Which is why it's best to pull over as soon as you safely can and look/take a breath and see how far you have come that usually helps calm fears and doubts.