Friday, January 30, 2009

All We Need

Love never fails! I Cor 13:8

Love is transformational, I honestly believe that. Not being in love but loving. I Corinthians 13 is my most favorite (yes I'm aware that is not correct usage and that I don't need the most in front of the favorite) chapter of the Bible ever. It is the guide for how we should love and it should help us sort the wheat from the chaff or the lust from the love. Even President Obama quoted it in his inauguration speech.

I am not in love with love. Nor do I love easy, but I do believe love never fails. Real and true love. Love doesn't transform things on your time, but it is transformational. Kinda like time. They say if you don't like something just keep on until it changes. I think love is the same way. If you keep on loving even those who don't deserve or need it will bring a c change. However, don't confuse this with being in love or romantic love. I just mean love.

The scripture says that with out love there is nothing. It says what love is and what it isn't. Sometimes when I try to think about loving someone I ask myself if I experience those things that love is not, you know like jealousy or boastfulness. It helps me put love in perspective. Agape love. That's the love I'm talking about. If there is more than what I call fleeting moments I know that its a different kind of love. Loving with out expecting love in return is hard.

I don't believe that people have to deserve love. I mean love, real love doesn't require reciprocation, that is only required to be in love. LOVE.

Loving someone in spite of their faults or how they treat you is what we are suppose to do, after all aren't we suppose to love our enemies. Why? Because it is a transformational. It never fails. However we don't know that because we give up on loving when its no longer about reciprocation. Love is about love. Some people can't love you back and the older I get the more I believe that one should never love to be loved. You should love because you understand with out love there is nothing.

Everyone deserves to be loved, isn't it obvious the Bible says love those who spitefully misuse you . If I'm loving those who hate me and wish harm on me, I sure need to love everyone else above that line. Right.

Love never fails! Sometimes we have to love while others learn to love. Sometimes you can't see the love. Everyone is deserving of love. So many people who don't love have nothing.

Love never fails!

I have always said that my one goal in my life is to make sure those I choose to care about can never doubt that I love them.

Love is transformational.

Its far easier to be in love than it is to love. Sometimes we get carried away with love as an emotion. However love is not an emotion, it is an action.

Love never fails!

For God so LOVED the world he gave his only forgotten son. Doesn't get any more transformational than that.

It will make you do right

It will make you do wrong


4 foot taps and a bass rift!

Its not always accompanied by happiness.

And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love I Cor 13:13

Be EZ,


Friday, January 23, 2009

The Wrap-Up

Well, the week is wrapping up and now it is time to put away the party clothes and sparkly jewels. It’s time to wash the smoky eyes and red lips. It is time to be about the business at hand. At this point all the excitement of getting to the presidency is over and now it must be about making the kind of history that we can not so clearly see and understand. We have celebrated the momentousness of this occasion. Well some of us have, being in Texas it is apparent to me that many people are trying to diminish President Fo’Fo’s (Man, I LOVE my fo fo!) accomplishment. You already know how I feel about haters so …moving on.

I’ve been trying to figure out exactly what do I say about the occasion. How do I commemorate this on my itsy bitsy blog so that can pay proper honor to this moment and document this moment for my own personal herstory. How do I pay homage to what that moment meant to me, to my family, to my state, to my country, TO THE WORLD. How do I honor the ancestors and inspirers, the kids ( not the ones that snap), the doubters, and even the haters. The truth is I can’t. For most of my readers there is nothing I can write, no words I can string together that can truly honor Tuesday’s occasion.

What I can do, is do the things it takes to make the words of President Obama’s inaugural address true for the 21st century. I can up my service game. If you know me IRL you know I am committed to service, mostly collegiate education, mostly because I stood on the backs of so many to obtain my degree, I think it is only right that I at least kneel down and put someone on my shoulders. You know pay it forward. So after giving you lazy blogs of videos, transcripts, and pictures (because they really are worth a 1,000 words maybe a 1,000,000 words in this case) I just want to share/record my observations and conversations about the new age I hope we are living in.

Ask not…
So after watching everything and listening and reading accounts of so many who were in DC, I decided to step up my service game. My Main Dammie, bus chick ,spent part of her childhood in Morocco because her parents were in the Peace Corps and now I wonder if that kind of service will begin again, when a young family with two young children pack up and join the Peace Corps or when young college graduates dedicate two years of their life to teaching in under-served under-financed schools before they go off to stack paper from corporate America, Kennedy’s America. Sometimes I wonder if this is our second chance to see what happens when America serves the world and leads by example. In so many ways Dallas's grassy knoll was the graveyard of an America that actually did what Jesus did instead of just asked what he would do.

Most Christians who read their Bibles know that service is a base tenant of JC’s teachings. There is something about serving your fellow man that grows you in a way nothing else can. At my church during Resurrection weekend one of the events of the weekend is foot washing. Man…whole new perspective on life. Service.

Moving on, I am very excited at America’s move towards service.

Leaders set the tone
There were 2 million plus people in little bitty old Washington DC on Inauguration Day and the news reported not ONE arrest. Not one. Everyone has said the spirit of kindness and friendliness was thick. Leaders set the tone. Our President is cool as a fan and I think that is why you saw order during his inauguration celebrations.

We will extend our hand if you unclench your fist
You know there are so many pieces of that speech, or sermon as Newsweek called it, that resonate with my soul. However I love how he addressed our foes. That we are not aggressors or bullies and if you're cool with us we’ll be cool with you, however you are not finna punk us. I love how he said we will NOT apologize for the way we live. To me that is TRUE conflict resolution. It’s funny because at work that is how I operate. People ALWAYS think I’m nice as pie and I am and we're cool until you act a fool. Many have had to find that out the hard way.


We must be able to give as much as we want to stack paper. We must be able to be kind to strangers and realize we share commonality. We must be able to give not merely a hand out but a hand up, by encouraging personal responsibility because it really is the only way to truly move forward.

The Big Picture

The one thing that I have truly come to realize is that sometimes you have to come to your breaking point in order to become who you need to be. I think in the last eight years America has been humbled, embarrassed, and shamed. America has done things she never thought she would America has been on a slow path of self-destruction. We had grown to a point where apathy was the norm, the accepted path and empathy was not in our vocabulary. We no longer remembered our history as a fledgling nation fighting for her representation. We no longer remembered our commitment to equality and happiness. We had to lose our way. We had to see what happens when you do not guard the constitution and hold those values in your heart. We had to live the lives we WERE living to understand that this is not the America we want to be. In so many ways W had to "lead" this country, Iraq had to happen, 911 had to happen to show us what can happen when you take the wrong road when you make the wrong choices or the right choices at the wrong time.

Tuesday when the oath was administered to Barack Hussein Obama FINALLY these words were truly the words of America and the country which our fore fathers had set forth to build over 200 years ago.

We hold these truths to be self-evident, that all men are created equal, that they are endowed by their Creator with certain unalienable Rights, that among these are Life, Liberty and the pursuit of Happiness.

Since this moment is so big I thought I’d share a few e-mails I exchanged with friends over the week that speak to HOW different the vibe is here in Texas.

Hey girl!! I came to work (wtf was I thinking?). I couldn't watch the Inauguration online because there were too many users and there are no TV's in our building. Girl I was running around like a chicken with my head cut off. Finally I found a TV on different floor, for another company. Why are all the racists showing their true colors now?

You know when I heard about Jena 6, I was thinking, I could never live in a small racist town like that, but when I look at things now, I live in a BIG racist town like that. I'm just sick, but still so very proud!

How about you, what'd you do? I still cried like a newborn baby...snot throwing
and all. (HR not Hipsy Russell)

I was telling my friend that here there is FEAR, in MA there was HOPE!! I think what we are seeing are a group of people coming to terms with the fact that their way of thinking is truly on its death bed. This presidency is like the blow to Jim Crow that puts him on life support.

I came in to work both Monday and Tuesday ( no days off!! especially since this is just month 2). I watched on my computer and listened to the redneck behind me be passive aggressive, but I took the Obama road (formerly know as the high one) and met his HATE with love. That's right baby get it out get it all out...God loves you.

Girl, we have a room with 6 flat screens mounted ALL DARK on Tues. I was like this is HISTORY. Mandy watched it at work on FOX... I was like how fitting is that, says volumes about Houston. I think its times like this that remind me of the south’s painful past and current struggle.

I think sometimes we forget, because blacks here are successful and enjoy good lives, but we live such separate lives. You know it takes different things to remind us that we live in the less progressive states, but there are pockets of hope. Man I should have went to Austin I bet it was much better there, it’s our Seattle. *lol*

I didn't/haven't cried. I mean for me there was never a question of if only a question of when and who. And man he makes me grateful for W. I mean that’s the thing I think about how you should not judge things as good or bad but what they are. I mean if there was not a W to take this country deep into the moral, financial, and emotional valleys how could the hope and energy of change have been created.

This reminds me of the America of the 60's deeply divided yet from that division came the Peace Corps and Ameri Corps and America's spirit of service, like OUR PRESIDENT said on Tuesday we are back and we are ready to lead.

Not one arrest 2 million plus in DC NOT ONE ARREST Tues. When has that ever happened? Leaders set the tone. I am so proud that my president is a great man and blessed that he also happens to be black!! That really is the best part. (OG)

I’m so glad I get to be up here with all of these enlightened New Englanders! EVERYBODY here is just so excited about Obama. Okay, not everybody, but honestly, even the skeptics seem to have warmed up to the guy, at least for now. Even my cousin, who is not a racist but um...let's say he is sort of an old-school Italian American blue collar type from Massachusetts....saw the inauguration and was like "okay this guy is awesome." Anyway we'll enjoy the honeymoon while it lasts. (DS)

Be EZ,

Negritude* Celebrates

*that's a Toldja word!! Anyway, I thought I would share this seems like a Friday thing to do.

Man I am so happy to black, nicca I don't know what to say? Why was that line so incredibly complex and funny to me when it was said!

Enjoy! I really love what Jay says!! I'm sure Ann Coulter will be happy we acknowledged him being half white!

Be EZ,

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

I think they call this AFTERGLOW

A little summin summin to hold you over. I promise I will reflect! Actually, I am reflecting right now, but as I learned from Tim Gunn edit edit edit. I know hard to beleive but I do edit.

Special Thanks to Funke Blak Chik she's responsible for hipping us to this!

Man now that this has all happened, watching this and answering the same questions these entertainers are answering really make me appreciate being in MA election night! More on that later I promise. Enjoy!!

Be EZ,

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

Looks Like We Made It (for real... for real)

I don't have anything to say just yet, not a lot of time to collect all the thoughts I have in my head. I know you heard it but you should really read the speech. The words are powerful even without his flawless oratory. Enjoy and talk to you soon.

WASHINGTON - My fellow citizens,
I stand here today humbled by the task before us, grateful for the trust you have bestowed, mindful of the sacrifices borne by our ancestors. I thank President Bush for his service to our nation, as well as the generosity and cooperation he has shown throughout this transition.
Forty-four Americans have now taken the presidential oath. The words have been spoken during rising tides of prosperity and the still waters of peace. Yet, every so often the oath is taken amidst gathering clouds and raging storms. At these moments, America has carried on not simply because of the skill or vision of those in high office, but because We the People have remained faithful to the ideals of our forbearers, and true to our founding documents.
So it has been. So it must be with this generation of Americans.
That we are in the midst of crisis is now well understood. Our nation is at war, against a far-reaching network of violence and hatred. Our economy is badly weakened, a consequence of greed and irresponsibility on the part of some, but also our collective failure to make hard choices and prepare the nation for a new age. Homes have been lost; jobs shed; businesses shuttered. Our health care is too costly; our schools fail too many; and each day brings further evidence that the ways we use energy strengthen our adversaries and threaten our planet.
These are the indicators of crisis, subject to data and statistics. Less measurable but no less profound is a sapping of confidence across our land — a nagging fear that America's decline is inevitable, and that the next generation must lower its sights.
Today I say to you that the challenges we face are real. They are serious and they are many. They will not be met easily or in a short span of time. But know this, America — they will be met.
On this day, we gather because we have chosen hope over fear, unity of purpose over conflict and discord.
On this day, we come to proclaim an end to the petty grievances and false promises, the recriminations and worn out dogmas, that for far too long have strangled our politics.
We remain a young nation, but in the words of Scripture, the time has come to set aside childish things. The time has come to reaffirm our enduring spirit; to choose our better history; to carry forward that precious gift, that noble idea, passed on from generation to generation: the God-given promise that all are equal, all are free, and all deserve a chance to pursue their full measure of happiness.
In reaffirming the greatness of our nation, we understand that greatness is never a given. It must be earned. Our journey has never been one of short-cuts or settling for less. It has not been the path for the faint-hearted — for those who prefer leisure over work, or seek only the pleasures of riches and fame. Rather, it has been the risk-takers, the doers, the makers of things — some celebrated but more often men and women obscure in their labor, who have carried us up the long, rugged path towards prosperity and freedom.
For us, they packed up their few worldly possessions and traveled across oceans in search of a new life.
For us, they toiled in sweatshops and settled the West; endured the lash of the whip and plowed the hard earth.
For us, they fought and died, in places like Concord and Gettysburg; Normandy and Khe Sahn.
Time and again these men and women struggled and sacrificed and worked till their hands were raw so that we might live a better life. They saw America as bigger than the sum of our individual ambitions; greater than all the differences of birth or wealth or faction.
This is the journey we continue today. We remain the most prosperous, powerful nation on Earth. Our workers are no less productive than when this crisis began. Our minds are no less inventive, our goods and services no less needed than they were last week or last month or last year. Our capacity remains undiminished. But our time of standing pat, of protecting narrow interests and putting off unpleasant decisions — that time has surely passed. Starting today, we must pick ourselves up, dust ourselves off, and begin again the work of remaking America.
For everywhere we look, there is work to be done. The state of the economy calls for action, bold and swift, and we will act — not only to create new jobs, but to lay a new foundation for growth. We will build the roads and bridges, the electric grids and digital lines that feed our commerce and bind us together. We will restore science to its rightful place, and wield technology's wonders to raise health care's quality and lower its cost. We will harness the sun and the winds and the soil to fuel our cars and run our factories. And we will transform our schools and colleges and universities to meet the demands of a new age. All this we can do. All this we will do.
Now, there are some who question the scale of our ambitions — who suggest that our system cannot tolerate too many big plans. Their memories are short. For they have forgotten what this country has already done; what free men and women can achieve when imagination is joined to common purpose, and necessity to courage.
What the cynics fail to understand is that the ground has shifted beneath them— that the stale political arguments that have consumed us for so long no longer apply. The question we ask today is not whether our government is too big or too small, but whether it works — whether it helps families find jobs at a decent wage, care they can afford, a retirement that is dignified. Where the answer is yes, we intend to move forward. Where the answer is no, programs will end. And those of us who manage the public's dollars will be held to account — to spend wisely, reform bad habits, and do our business in the light of day — because only then can we restore the vital trust between a people and their government.
Nor is the question before us whether the market is a force for good or ill. Its power to generate wealth and expand freedom is unmatched, but this crisis has reminded us that without a watchful eye, the market can spin out of control — and that a nation cannot prosper long when it favors only the prosperous. The success of our economy has always depended not just on the size of our Gross Domestic Product, but on the reach of our prosperity; on the ability to extend opportunity to every willing heart — not out of charity, but because it is the surest route to our common good.
As for our common defense, we reject as false the choice between our safety and our ideals. Our Founding Fathers, faced with perils we can scarcely imagine, drafted a charter to assure the rule of law and the rights of man, a charter expanded by the blood of generations. Those ideals still light the world, and we will not give them up for expedience's sake. And so to all other peoples and governments who are watching today, from the grandest capitals to the small village where my father was born: know that America is a friend of each nation and every man, woman, and child who seeks a future of peace and dignity, and we are ready to lead once more.
Recall that earlier generations faced down fascism and communism not just with missiles and tanks, but with sturdy alliances and enduring convictions. They understood that our power alone cannot protect us, nor does it entitle us to do as we please. Instead, they knew that our power grows through its prudent use; our security emanates from the justness of our cause, the force of our example, the tempering qualities of humility and restraint.
We are the keepers of this legacy. Guided by these principles once more, we can meet those new threats that demand even greater effort — even greater cooperation and understanding between nations. We will begin to responsibly leave Iraq to its people, and forge a hard-earned peace in Afghanistan. With old friends and former foes, we will work tirelessly to lessen the nuclear threat, and roll back the specter of a warming planet. We will not apologize for our way of life, nor will we waver in its defense, and for those who seek to advance their aims by inducing terror and slaughtering innocents, we say to you now that our spirit is stronger and cannot be broken; you cannot outlast us, and we will defeat you.
For we know that our patchwork heritage is a strength, not a weakness. We are a nation of Christians and Muslims, Jews and Hindus — and non-believers. We are shaped by every language and culture, drawn from every end of this Earth; and because we have tasted the bitter swill of civil war and segregation, and emerged from that dark chapter stronger and more united, we cannot help but believe that the old hatreds shall someday pass; that the lines of tribe shall soon dissolve; that as the world grows smaller, our common humanity shall reveal itself; and that America must play its role in ushering in a new era of peace.
To the Muslim world, we seek a new way forward, based on mutual interest and mutual respect. To those leaders around the globe who seek to sow conflict, or blame their society's ills on the West — know that your people will judge you on what you can build, not what you destroy. To those who cling to power through corruption and deceit and the silencing of dissent, know that you are on the wrong side of history; but that we will extend a hand if you are willing to unclench your fist.
To the people of poor nations, we pledge to work alongside you to make your farms flourish and let clean waters flow; to nourish starved bodies and feed hungry minds. And to those nations like ours that enjoy relative plenty, we say we can no longer afford indifference to suffering outside our borders; nor can we consume the world's resources without regard to effect. For the world has changed, and we must change with it.
As we consider the road that unfolds before us, we remember with humble gratitude those brave Americans who, at this very hour, patrol far-off deserts and distant mountains. They have something to tell us, just as the fallen heroes who lie in Arlington whisper through the ages. We honor them not only because they are guardians of our liberty, but because they embody the spirit of service; a willingness to find meaning in something greater than themselves. And yet, at this moment — a moment that will define a generation — it is precisely this spirit that must inhabit us all.
For as much as government can do and must do, it is ultimately the faith and determination of the American people upon which this nation relies. It is the kindness to take in a stranger when the levees break, the selflessness of workers who would rather cut their hours than see a friend lose their job which sees us through our darkest hours. It is the firefighter's courage to storm a stairway filled with smoke, but also a parent's willingness to nurture a child, that finally decides our fate.

Our challenges may be new. The instruments with which we meet them may be new. But those values upon which our success depends — honesty and hard work, courage and fair play, tolerance and curiosity, loyalty and patriotism — these things are old. These things are true. They have been the quiet force of progress throughout our history. What is demanded then is a return to these truths. What is required of us now is a new era of responsibility — a recognition, on the part of every American, that we have duties to ourselves, our nation, and the world, duties that we do not grudgingly accept but rather seize gladly, firm in the knowledge that there is nothing so satisfying to the spirit, so defining of our character, than giving our all to a difficult task.

This is the price and the promise of citizenship.
This is the source of our confidence— the knowledge that God calls on us to shape an uncertain destiny.

This is the meaning of our liberty and our creed — why men and women and children of every race and every faith can join in celebration across this magnificent mall, and why a man whose father less than sixty years ago might not have been served at a local restaurant can now stand before you to take a most sacred oath.

So let us mark this day with remembrance, of who we are and how far we have traveled. In the year of America's birth, in the coldest of months, a small band of patriots huddled by dying campfires on the shores of an icy river. The capital was abandoned. The enemy was advancing. The snow was stained with blood. At a moment when the outcome of our revolution was most in doubt, the father of our nation ordered these words be read to the people:
"Let it be told to the future world...that in the depth of winter, when nothing but hope and virtue could survive ... that the city and the country, alarmed at one common danger, came forth to meet [it]."

America. In the face of our common dangers, in this winter of our hardship, let us remember these timeless words. With hope and virtue, let us brave once more the icy currents, and endure what storms may come. Let it be said by our children's children that when we were tested we refused to let this journey end, that we did not turn back nor did we falter; and with eyes fixed on the horizon and God's grace upon us, we carried forth that great gift of freedom and delivered it safely to future generations.

Thank you. God bless you. And God bless the United States of America.
Be EZ,

Saturday, January 17, 2009

I LOVE 30 Rock

Ok so I usta just like it...Then I saw the after after after party episode and I LIKED it and now well I love it. I don't heart it yet but man if they keep on that Tina Fey is gonna make me drop the grudge I slighty still hold on the not funny HRC wrath she had for B-Rock. Anyway, I know it may jump the shark now due to the critical love and acclaim but I love it right now.

I'm buying it on DVD! Its that good and funny! That is all.

Be EZ,

Thursday, January 15, 2009


Look not a lot to say- well on permanent record of the internet. I am breathing. He is breathing. She is breathing. They are breathing. We are breathing. And that's all that REALLY matters. I want a dog and a new car and work is- well work. I like it but they want me to really work, but its fun.

2009 has already showed me some issues but I'm fine just quiet right now. I have learned never to speak on it until you have arms around "it" metaphorically speaking. I'm happy. Crys thinks the quiet is due to being sad, but the quiet is due to actually having to grind. The personal stuff well enough time hasn't passed for me to even make drastic moves. That is what the past has taught me and Tolle never jumped to the future stay in the now and work it as it comes.

Guess what? I got a Blackberry. Its my work phone. So now I'm the annoying bytch with a work phone, personal phone, work lap top, 2 personal lap tops, see why I need a dog. So when people see me they can say phuck her with all those trapping and her little dog too. *lol* I know random, but hey I haven't blogged in weeks.

How is everyone else's year going- I'll know before you answer cause I'm catching up on blogs right now and REMEMBER just because I don't comment don't mean I'm not reading. I'm like Santa Clause ok maybe not, then if not SC then who would I be like...hmmm I'm not like Jesus even though I often try to go SBF on him. (if you are really smart you got that or really witty or really high and/or drunk)

Anyway who is taking off Tuesday? Man I don't think I've mentioned it but I work with all men except for the executive assistant and all the FTE men on my team that I sit in the cubicle farm with are white and to the right. Man I KNOW they be wanting to say some shyt. But my blackness be stopping 'em. We follow the old school office rules not religion no politics... its been so long since I worked in a PC place. *lol* Not that PC because we talk sports and guns.

Y'all I want a new car (new to me) and for no other reason than I just want to drive something that was built in the new millennium. Ain't nothing wrong with my 97 4Runner. I just want a 2004 something hell even a 2001 something. However this credit crunch - can kiss it!! The fact that it looks like I own two homes on my credit (long story) and my end of year moving back home debt I LOOSE!! I probably need to wait until later.

Ok I'm done enough randomness I mean I know its not enough randomness for as long as I have been gone but its all I got!

Be EZ,