Friday, August 8, 2008

Friday Flashback: Let me Re-Introduce Myself

Well it's Friday and again I'm being a lazy bum and recycling, I have a lot of stuff that I want to share you know old stuff. Plus I'm reflecting as I come to new milestones in life and move towards my future. This post is from March 29, 2006. I am so happy I have found happiness and I have managed to maintain this happiness for more than two years. Sure I've had a few bumps in the road but really IT'S BEEN AL GOOD! I wouldn't change ANYTHING that has happened to me, after all if I did who knows what my life would look like. I saw the Butterfly Effect I know how that changing your past thing works.

Shortly after this I was blindsided with a few things, but I am happy to say while it sucked I did roll right through it right on to happiness! And no the dude I was talking about was not the current TOM A, but he really wasn't the object of my affection so he wasn't a TOM A either, but he was cool not the most honest or morally sound cat I found out, but hey we live we learn and I wished him much happiness.

So here is a flashback post from my Spaces page. Enjoy!

Let me Re-Introduce Myself

My name HOV, H to the O-V ...

Spaces, what is up? I missed you and I hope you missed me, but I have been busy with all that is life, love, and happiness!! I am cool, my life is settling nice and like settling there has been a lot of movement, a little confusion but it is all GOOD. I am LOVING life. I have love of the people around me. I have the true friendship of people I respect and love. I have the admiration of little children in the street, ok ok ok I don’t know if that one is true, but it sounded good, right? The people that I love KNOW I love them and I am there for them.

I used to move snowflakes by the O-Z/ I guess even back then you can call me/CEO of the R-O-C, Hov'! ...

Work, every day I am excited about work and what we are doing. I am doing some things and when they happen, no need to thank me, because making your life easier is what I do. That’s my job and That’s how I roll!! Lean wit it, Rock wit it! It is busier than what I use to be but I do find time to live life and between getting my grind on, I have made some great work friends. It reminds me of my first real job in IT, except the people are more mature less of the young stuff. UH!! I was a baby when I worked there and so was the rest of the crew! These people are CRAZY, TALENTED, and SMART. I really think you will be reading about what my team has done in a few years. OPRAH here I come!!

Flyer/flier than a piece of paper bearin my name/ Got the hottest chick in the game wearin my chain, that's right ...

Still dating, and very cool with that!! I have been seeing one person for a very long time and we are friends. There isn’t much bad I can say about him. You know he isn’t perfect, no one is, but lately I really know this dude cuts for me. I feel we are great friends and for me THAT IS MOST IMPORTANT. I have been able to work on me while we have been dating. I have been able to grow as a person. His honesty has made me face some things about me and not make some adjustments I was trying to make in me. Those adjustments would have been for the worse. I must admit to you guys I had a “friendship” shake me, almost make me change who I was as a person. You know made me become distrustful of men in general.

All I have to say is thank goodness for friends who are like GIRL come on snap out of it, Monique you are being paranoid, Moni don’t do that dude like that. Girl if you let how that azzhole acted affect how you treat other men, then he wins. They were ALL right; I realized I can’t make the son pay for the sins of the father, so to say. I am happy for what I have learned the hard way. Now I still am not sure if I am ready to be someone’s gal. I am still dating and checking my options. I will never ever just enter into a relationship on accident. When I do it will be something that we talk about and enter into knowingly. I take this shyt seriously! FO’ SHO!

I heard from a very old friend, he is doing REALLY well and he is getting married. I don’t know if he knows just how ECSTATIC I am for him. I knew the first time he told me about this shorty duwop and her lil’ kid that she was his one. Some may doubt the genuineness of my feelings bout this situation, because this man was one of the three men I have loved in my life. Funny thing about really loving someone, you want them to be happy no matter what. As long as he is happy doesn't matter if it was with me or not. We were friends first and foremost! I wish him and his new family nothing, but the best!!

E, I was serious when I said we cool, you asked for forgiveness I gave it and I wish you the best in life and can't wait to see pics of the new family. ONE LOVE man. YOU GET A PASS!! Apparently I only give those to my friends, WHO DA PHUCK ELSE you suppose to give a pass to? Anywho!

I'm like, Che Guevara with bling on, I'm complex/ I never claimed to have wings on Ni99a I get mine - by any means on whenever there's a drought/ Get your umbrellas out because, that's when I brainstorm...

I am not perfect and I am so glad I FINALLY realized I don’t have to be. You know I have finally realize some shyt is just that shyt ,and I am letting it roll STRAIGHT down hill baby. Love puts things in perspective and shows you the stupid shyt in life that is trivial. When you love someone and they are hurting all the bullshyt in life drops quickly. I want everyone to keep Mama Buschick and the whole family in their thoughts and prayers! Just send positive vibes that’s all you need to know. I LOVE those people, they are family and whateva I can do, I WILL. My love for Saulty C, White Sault, Sea Sault, Saulty Pimpin’, and Saulty B*llz has help me make sure the things that are really important have priority in life. I love you guys.

I have been looking for bridesmaid dresses for the Wedding of the year (Buschick and DBH), maybe I am crazy but I AM SO EXCITED to stand up for my girl and her boy. She really is like Che with bling on!! LOL! You guys should see that bling she’s rocking !! I can’t wait to kick it wit you guys in 2-0 –SICKNESS its gone be the event of the Summer! Fo’ REAL!!

Only God can judge me, so I'm gone/ Either love me, or leave me alone ...

I finally realize people can say what they want to say about me, I really am gonna let is stop getting to me. If I’m a hypocrite, then I’ll let G-O-D tell me. If Imma bytch, Imma let G-O-D tell me. I am human and I have made and will make mistakes. I am not ever gonna get it all right. Life is about self correcting yourself. As I see it, there is a path and we all get is wrong and sometimes we think we are right, but the measure is when we see we are wrong we self-correct and get back on the road to righteousness. We go, you know I was wrong let me change that up that didn’t work.

THERE ARE A TON OF THINGS I didn’t do right in my life, but I am adult enough to admit that and get on a course to do what I KNOW is right. So that’s what I am doing I am not the Monique of 98, 01, 04, HELL I ain’t even the Monique of yesterday. I am gonna always be growing, so if you knew me back then and you still think I am that chick, I’m not and all I can do is hope you don’t go crazy holding on to the skin I shed several years, months, weeks, days, hours, minutes, or even seconds back. People grow and change and those who don’t… well, I don’t kick it wit people like that, so I really don't know what people who don’t grow do or how they live. Not my concern because just like me, only God can judge them.

You guys take care. Kel, Theresa, Anya, Renee, and Keith I plan on being by your spots in next few days just to check up on you! I miss you I haven’t had a chance to really get my comment on like I use to, Imma be by though- WAIT ON ME! The rest of my crew you already know, if we haven’t talked we WILL I promise!

Now, back to our regular scheduled program ...

Be EZ,



Sister Girl said...

"Only God can judge me, so I'm gone/ Either love me, or leave me alone..."

This really hit the core of me this evening as I rocked to your rhyme once again recalling all the fabulous writings on the walls of fame on Spaces.

The worse mistake that a human being can make is the art of not growing, & when I say that I mean it in the reflection of always doing the same thing over and over with the expectation of a different outcome. Heaven knows there are so many things that I wish to stay the same,but in order for me to advance I have to make my self pliable to it.

And the butterfly effect is an excellent reference because if you've never been through something that you've been freed from, then soaring on the laurels of happiness won't mean quite the same.

T. said...

Hey there O.G.!

I need your input on a post I put up a few hours about "On Being The Excellent Wife"...yes...that conversation about black women and marriage never ceases! I know you have some perspectives on what a wife SHOULD be!